Renee Sendelbach A fine line
between too much
and not enough
A fine line
between care about me
care for me
and
leave me the hell alone
A fine line
between asking how I am
and
ignoring the fact I go to chemo 3 out of 4 weeks
A fine line
between my smiles
and
my tears
A fine line
I walk everyday
A fine line
that sometimes
I am on both sides
at once
Neither side is better
Neither side is easier
Neither side is safer
A fine line
of feeling good
of feeling like shit
A fine line
of living in limbo
of not knowing what tomorrow will bring
A fine line
that can blur all too easily
I actually wrote this back in March, right after I started chemo…
I still feel this way most days…
It is hard to walk to the line…
Renee,
Your expression in this poem is so on point and it makes me…sad, angry (at myself), regretful…and I hope I have expressed myself to you – as your friend and as someone who loves you dearly – how much I care.