Then what

I went to see the movie Boyhood this weekend with a dear friend I
don’t get to see often because – wait for it – life gets in the ways.

This movie touched me way down deep. The deep that makes me
get all gitty because I see that other people think the same as I do.

I have been holding out for the WOW moment in my life. 

Even with cancer, I have been holding out for something.

For the next something to be wowed at.

                At
first, I was waiting for the cancer to be gone.

Then it was (the first time)

Then I was waiting be like I was
before cancer.

Then I was.

Then I got cancer again.

Then I was waiting until it was
gone.

Then it was.

Then it wasn’t.

In between all these huge moments that make up this life, I
too easily forget that it is in between these huge moments that is really life.

Yes, I have more peaks and valleys then most people, but I
am really trying harder to enjoy the whole ride – not just the breathing-taking
drops. 

And being ok with the mundane coasting.

I am finding out,
that is where you see all the pretty sensory.