I have been asleep for the past 30 hours.
I think all the stress of the scan, the appointments, the
every think really took its toll on me. So much more than I would like to
admit.
I couldn’t sleep Monday
or Tuesday nights, then it all hit me.
I went to sleep yesterday at 9 a.m. after having another bad
night of sleep. I sleep until 300 in the afternoon, went to get Ian, came back
home and got Ian set up with snacks and TV (hey, I have to do what I have to
do), laid back down telling him to wake me if he needs me, slept again to 530,
Eric home and then I slept the whole night through and woke up at 830 this
morning.
And the thing is, I am still tired.
Side note up there – at first I typed (yes, I get mother of
the year award) BUT I changed it because I am really trying to not talk shit on
myself. Yes this is my life.
I guess Dr. H was right when she told me to slow my roll the
other day.
I just want to do so much, I want to spent time with everybody,
I want to work out again (even though I have been doing my spinner here for 20
a day, I want more).
I think I need to go back to taking naps during the
day. I seem to do better when I do that.
I almost didn’t write this.
I was going to take the easy way out and post something I had written months
ago, but then I remind myself I promised to tell the whole truth…this is it.