Jeremiah 29:11 – holding tight to His plan

Jeremiah
29:11

 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to
harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I
am holding tight to this verse – OH so tight.

I
know He has plans and as hard as it is to admit it to myself, I don’t know the
plans and I shouldn’t know the plans ahead of time – I just need to know He has
a plan and is putting it into place this second.

There
has been a slight change of plans this week.

After
my radiation and neurologist spoke, they came up with a new plan.

I
will do brain radiation Wednesday, Thursday and Friday verses just one day.

I
will go in at 430 daily to get the good drugs to calm me being as I will have
to be strapped to the table with a mesh face mask (yes, I have pictures)

Radiation
will be 500-530 ish

As
much as I do NOT want to do 3 days of radiation on my brain, I do trust this
plan…but I am scared.

One
day of radiation seemed to totally throw me over the edge last time into crazy
town and zapped every last ounce of energy I had left.

And
I still don’t know what “maintenance” I will be on.

I
am ready for a plan.

I
guess looking back my Monday/Thursday plan wasn’t so bad.

I
actually miss going there 2x a week. I kind of feel like I have lost a group of
friends and now will be an outsider when there verses a part of them.