Brain radiation starts today:

I am getting nervous about radiation that will start today…it
seemed radiation was what threw me over to crazy town last time, but I think I have
a better handle on this time…but I don’t know.

I guess I won’t know until after it is over.

I feel myself getting nervous – trying to line things up
around the house, make sure Ian has something to do this weekend because I know
I am going to need to “just be” most of weekend and for that I already feel
guilty….be alone, it to be quiet, just be to heal.

There is way too much nervous energy around here.

Me and mom are going to go get me a new purse and out to
lunch while Ian is at camp before Eric takes me to radiation…I guess I shouldn’t
have a glass of wine at lunch before my brain gets blasted with radiation?!?!