Well, just like Christmas birthdays come and go super fast. This one was no different, but I am VERY happy to say that it lived up to all the expectations Ian had for it. He …

I have a feeling this is going to be all over the place – sorry in advance. Pictures: My neighbor Holly, who is a photographer, took some pictures of me back in June (really, was …

Still no word on the trial…the research nurse is 99% confident I will get in, but says she won’t be happy until we have it in writing – I am going with that also. Treatment …

I guess it is time I write this. I was thinking if I didn’t write it or talk about it that it would somehow not be true and go away – I am pretty sure …

This is not at all what I had prepared myself for. I got the call late Monday afternoon with my PET scan results. I am still numb, confused, p*ssed off and asking why? What I …

Is what I want to throw – if I were an irrational 2 year-old. I kind of know why kids throw massive tantrums when their world is out of control – that out of control …

12…12 chemos…way too many. When I look at this, it really doesn’t surprise me how flippin’ beat down tired I am. Nothing I do seems to help this tiredness – I can’t sleep all day …

It hit me the other morning that I am scared of this coming Friday – scared of the unknown of what is to come next. It is almost 99% certain that this will be my …

Eleven….eleven chemos done. This is all still so bizarre to me. I sometimes wonder if this will ever really seem normal or will it always be bizarre to me – especially when I start maintenance? …