I have a feeling this is going to be all over the place – sorry in advance. Pictures: My neighbor Holly, who is a photographer, took some pictures of me back in June (really, was …

Still no word on the trial…the research nurse is 99% confident I will get in, but says she won’t be happy until we have it in writing – I am going with that also. Treatment …

I guess it is time I write this. I was thinking if I didn’t write it or talk about it that it would somehow not be true and go away – I am pretty sure …

This is not at all what I had prepared myself for. I got the call late Monday afternoon with my PET scan results. I am still numb, confused, p*ssed off and asking why? What I …

Is what I want to throw – if I were an irrational 2 year-old. I kind of know why kids throw massive tantrums when their world is out of control – that out of control …

12…12 chemos…way too many. When I look at this, it really doesn’t surprise me how flippin’ beat down tired I am. Nothing I do seems to help this tiredness – I can’t sleep all day …

It hit me the other morning that I am scared of this coming Friday – scared of the unknown of what is to come next. It is almost 99% certain that this will be my …

Eleven….eleven chemos done. This is all still so bizarre to me. I sometimes wonder if this will ever really seem normal or will it always be bizarre to me – especially when I start maintenance? …

Do you want to be right or be happy? Do you want peace or drama? These were two questions that our minister talked about one Sunday that really, really hit home with me. You can’t …