All this happening with my friend as of late, is really taking me to several different places in my heart. Places that are blah but in my mind, necessary for growth. I have found in …
God
Trying not to live in fear
Scan-xiety The scenarios start playing as soon as I book my appointment. The what ifs that like to take over: What if cancer is in my body again? Would I have to do full out chemo? …
How to be happy?
I don’t know at what point I started to believe I had to get all this stuff done in order to be happy?? I don’t even think “happy” is the correct word – accomplished maybe? …
Absolute faith
11/30/14 Unity Church of the Hills I won’t lie, it still startles me if I am caught off guard when Spirit talks to me. Sometimes I try SO hard to talk, I don’t hear anything. …
So very thankful
Thanksgiving 2014 At first I thought I was going to write about how my last few Thanksgivings were really hard for me because my body wasn’t healthy. Then I thought, I don’t want to talk …
A missed appointment
A missed appointment To date, I have only missed two chemo appointments ever in my 6.5 year “career” as Texas Oncology. I missed the first one because I was in the hospital with steroid psychosis…I …
The world doesn’t stop
The world doesn’t stop I cleaned out my email today and noticed the junk mail from Dec 2013 – April 2014. Apparently, I never checked my mail those months? Those aren’t the only a set …
Panic Attacks
Panic attack I remember the first panic attack I ever had. I was 25, exhausted from doing too much and I snapped like a rubber band pulled too tight. I didn’t know it then that …
Brain Report
I don’t know why, it is easy for me to forget to write the good stuff. I need/want to bask in the good stuff. I had at appointment with Groves on Thursday – he is …
Use me
People email or FB me questions all the time about their loved ones who have been diagnosed with BC of even some other cancer. It is a love/hate relationship I have within myself about being …